MOMMYHOOD....
It will literally make
you feel like you have gone crazy and then some! You feel some days like you've totally got it down (
ok.. maybe like for an hour or so) and then
BAM, you are yet again scrambling for time, overwhelmed and wondering if the day will ever end!! I was asking..ok...BEGGING the Lord for some sort of
strategy..
anything..."What is the answer Lord? I need something, anything...how do i be the mother YOU have destined me to be? How do I love my children and husband despite all circumstances? How do I have JOY at all times and be filled with the LOVE and passion of Christ everywhere I go???" and then it came...revelation...like a sweet whisper in my ear that had been there the whole time....God spoke....
"IT'S ME!"
"What Lord?!!" Then again.." IT'S ME!!!" and then all of the sudden it just all made
sense! God
IS patient, LOVE, JOY, SELF CONTROL and Lord
began to show me that I have NONE of these things by myself(as if I needed a reminder
haha) and ONLY through a constant
communion with Him will I ever be
joyful in the midst of any
circumstance...find peace in the midst of chaos and LOVE people will His kind of love!!
I mean how in the WORLD can I expect to patient with my kids when they are fighting for the 50
th time in an hour, or have peace when our car breaks down...agiain..or find love in my heart for the ruthless bill
collector on the phone...and then God made it very clear......
I CANT...
I don't have ANY LOVE without Him...I have to be with Him, worshiping Him.
spending time with Him, reading His Word and talking to Him....
So wait....its just that simple?!! Just spend time with Jesus and I will be an amazing mommy and wife?? Basically!! As we "waste our life" at the feet of Jesus, He will consume every part of our lives and then and ONLY then can be
truly experience any REAL joy, peace, self control, gentleness....
So then I say...Oh Lord, you know I don't have
hardly any time! Then The Lord graciously reminded me about the woman who was a widow and gave the last cent that she had to the Lord. And to so many she looked so foolish..i mean how was she going to eat the next day...she just gave away everything she had!! But the Lord called that "GOOD"..and went on to say that what a blessing it is to give out of your NEED!
ok,
ok..so what does money have to do with time???? EVERYTHING!
The Lord began to show me that I (and
probably ever mother out
there) is in
poverty when it comes to time. We just don't have enough of it. So when the Lord calls us to spend time with Him we think.."But Lord....I only have this
TINY lil allotment of time..if I do that then I will have no time to cook, clean, run a seemingly
normal household...and then you can forget about any
lil projects!" and the Lord said...
"
EXACTLY!!" "WASTE" your time on ME, spend time with me, even though you have NO time and I WILL BE
FAITHFUL to provide...(peace, love and JOY)..
"Seek FIRST the kingdom of God and ALL else will be added unto you!"
So there ya have it...the
simplest yet most
satisfying revelation to being an amazing mommy.
Am I pro at it?
ABSOLUTELY NOT...but maybe just maybe I can began to hear the voice of the Lord calling out to me in the midst of the screaming,
poopy diapers, and food flying....inviting me to find peace in HIS
PRESENCE!!!!!!!
P.S You might be thinking...but how can God help me with potty training, all I can say is I wouldn't under estimate the God who created the universe! :)